Hey, this is my first here, so here is some background info before I go into my tangent and ask for some advice. My name is Elie, I'm a senior in high school, I'm in a relationship with a guy I've been with for a little under a month in a half. We are very compatible, especially sexually, we both want to explore this area, but some of his ideas scare me (even if they turn me on.)
Like fisting.
So my boyfriend and I are meeting up tomorrow night, and we will be having a lot of sex. One thing that makes me nervous though, he suggested trying fisting the other night. Now, in the past I have never done it, nor have I ever wanted too, it sounded so painful. Because the moment he suggested it, it was probably the most phenomenal idea I'd heard all week.
Now, I really want to try it, and we plan on it this weekend, but I am still very very nervous about this idea. It's a 50/50 thing. Half excited, half scared as fuck.
Also, my boyfriend is, well, huge. I've only been with two people previous to him, and it'd been a year since I had sex the first time we did it, we weren't very rough, but afterwards I was bleeding a little bit, same with the second time. The third time we hung out, I was sick and wasn't up to much so he fingered me, but I bled from that too.
Does anyone have any ideas as to why this is happening? I'm sorry, I haven't checked the memories on this question yet.
And because of this bleeding thing, is fisting a safe thing to do still?
Sorry for rambling so much! I just really don't quite know what I'm doing with this stuff.
Oh, also, when reading the memories, I frequently saw it mentioned to use a glove. Is a glove necessary? I'd really preferr not to use one, and same with lube. I honestly produce a lot of that myself, I doubt we'll need it. Or are those absolute necessities for something like this?
I've been through and I've read the memories, and they have helped me on the mechanical aspect of this, but I was wondering if anyone would be willing to share stories/personal experiences to help comfort me? This idea really does make me nervous, despite how excited I am. Is it safe? Have you tried it and enjoyed it?
(sorry for such a long post!)